So the oral portion of my Ph.D. qualifier's exam is this upcoming Monday. Every time I think about it, my heart literally starts to beat faster and I get this queasy feeling in my stomach. In fact, last night I only got 1 hr of sleep (not because I was up late studying), but because I'm so anxious about this exam that its robbing both my AM and PM hours = MY LIFE!!
Have you ever felt so overwhelmed that you're discouraged to study something even before you've picked up the book. There is just so much material and so little time and I really am trying not to psych myself out. My friends and family keep telling me that they know I'm going to do just fine. My question is...why don't I feel that way right now? Sometimes, I think that the intensity of this whole process is lost on someone who hasn't gone through it so it becomes easier to say things like that.
In any case, as a Christian, I must hold fast to the promise that God will not give me more than I can bear, that I can do all things through Him that strengthens me and most importantly that He has not given me the spirit of fear! Lord knows I need His help in accepting these facts and making them personally my own. I will be praising His name when this stage is done and I can officially be called a Ph.D. candidate.
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Hi,
i know this was from a long time ago, but i SERIOUSLY understand the stress you are talking about.
I love your belief in God too.
*going to continue reading through your blog* :)
hey mae!
although I am late commenting on this, i just wanted to say (as a fellow sister in this phd race) i feel ya 100%! hang in there and may God continue to grant us success and favor along the journey!
blessings to ya hun,
ogechi :o)
i have been asking myself for many months now... where is my motivation to complete my academic studies and finish my Masters dissertation... i have allowed myself to be discouraged, depressed and dissatisfied with it. reading his post has really inspired me. as a Christian, my hope should stand firm in the Lord, i should trust in Him for all things, i WILL conquer this to bring honour and glory to God!! thanks so much for sharing this journey. Many Blessings xx
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